Been a while

I feel like my world has fell apart, I am trying to be so strong, so positive. But I feel I have been kicked in my gut. Today a very good friend of mines mother passed away. Her mother suffered and wanted to live. Her death brought back a lot a feelings of my own fathers death. Then I looked over and saw my husband slipping away. I see him getting thinner, I see a shell of a person that I knew. It breaks my heart.

Hospice

Well, a lot has changed in two weeks. I ended up taking my husband to the ER on Jan 4, Doctor ordered a CT scan where it showed spreading to hubby's spine and to the rest of his ribs, Pleural effusion has got larger, and a new mass in his lower part of his right lung. So he was changed to stage 4 non-small cell lung cancer. Doctor done a bone scan and conformed the spread.

So doctors and my husband made the choice that since his lung function was so poor, and the cancer was making him so weak, that he will not be getting any treatments. It became a issue of having a better quality life.

So the doctors sent us home with an hospice referral.

B-12

Works wonders! Hubby got a B-12 shot a few days ago, He is able to sit up and play games on his laptop. Yesterday he went out all by himself for a few hours. This was a major change from the man who could hardly walk around.

Well this week he goes for a bone scan to check the tiny Met, and a CAT scan to get an updated look at his cancer to check how much spread he may have had. Basically so we can have a starting point before chemo treatment.

On the 11th he goes for the follow up, then treatments starts.

Happy new year!