Slipping away

Well the official word is that his cancer has spread to his liver and brain. This is shown my his demenita and hostile outbreaks. The toxins from the liver build up in the body. He is also falling, un study on his feet. Dropping things.

The fact is there is nothing no one can do. We try to manage his pain, but I know it is unreal pain. I know he does not tell the truth when he talks about his pain.

Hospice has done a wonderful job.

This is like waiting for a bomb to exploded.

He is dying

My husband is slowly dying. He is losing weight, and is starting to what hospice calls "wasting".

He belly is swollen and tight. The cancer has spread to his liver, and that is causing fluid to build up.

He sleeps a lot, talks to dead people.

This is the hardest thing I ever had to do.