Been a while

I feel like my world has fell apart, I am trying to be so strong, so positive. But I feel I have been kicked in my gut. Today a very good friend of mines mother passed away. Her mother suffered and wanted to live. Her death brought back a lot a feelings of my own fathers death. Then I looked over and saw my husband slipping away. I see him getting thinner, I see a shell of a person that I knew. It breaks my heart.